From one day to the next ... the pendulum swings :)
Really though, do you ever get the sense that the ups and downs are a bit more intense than other times?
Yesterday ... ho hum, challenging, long.
Today, everything feels great, despite the fact that my car didn't start this morning and I had to reschedule a client because if it (plus, the day is flying by).
In these "great" stages I'm thankful that I have clarity around the dichotomy of it all.
I entertain, for a moment, the "I'm a bad Mom" story ... because clearly I'm having a better day today because I'm getting a break from Mom-hood, and I don't have to negotiate every little power-struggle-transition of the day. (we're in Ruby "terrible-two" mode)
But then, I rise a bit higher. I find my heart and truth in the mix.
* I AM feeling good because I don't have to negotiate all the 'my-way-or-the-highway' stuff (incidentally, both Ru and I have to own this).
* I am feeling both wonderfully-optimistic-excited AND will-it-get-here-already-for-the-love about working more in October.
* I am NOT surprised that this phase of life has felt challenging (given me and my demeanor) and instead choose to look at it as validation of my strengths and passions, of who I am.
* I know the polar-opposite pendulum swing (aka. multiple personalities / I-feel-crazy-because-of-the-swing ) will level out again with the better-for-me balance coming
But hey ... talk to me tomorrow, I just may feel like life is HARD again. Getting through!
And, for today ... I LOVE It (ALL)
And Today: Thank you to Heather, Roland, Jon, Flo (though she doesn't even know why)
Again, LOVE Life!
Oh Yes .. and fitting in more of those activities that make me FEEL GOOD helps everthing! Hiking and single-track Mtn Biking in a beautiful mtn setting just a couple of those activities. And, drinking wine with friends. And ... possibilities galore!
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